I am lossing it !

I have to take a minute to blog because I am loosing it ! I know it doesnt help that I havent slept all night long in who knows how long.Kayden allergies are really bothering her- poor baby. I brought it up with the ENT last friday and asked if he would look in her nose. He told me she has a small nasal passage and he recommended a nose spray called xclear. This week things have gotten worse and she isnt really sleeping at night (which means neither am I). Last night was even worse and she couldnt even talk a bottle cause she couldnot breathe- greatsince she is laready under weight !. so I called the family dr this morning- who was full and said for her to see the PA. dont really feel comforatable with that since Kayden has a medical history. So I called the ENT and waited and waited and waited and waited (you get the picture) . So I called after lunch and get his nurse. Who said he says to use the spray ! Well- that $12 spray doesnt do crap (in my husbands terms). She informs me that in light of her heart issues the ENT doesnt want to see her and that we wants me to take her to the family dr ! yep- the one who cant see her either !! So the ENt doesnt want to see her with her medical history and I dont want her to see the Pa for the same medical history and the family dr is too busy ! ARGH !!!!!!! So I call another Dr ofc and they say we cant be seen until the 30th ! Heaven help me ! So if something doesnt break soon (and i wasnt referring to me- which is actually what is going to break around here) I guess we will be headed to Dell !!!!!I am seriously forwarding my mail there ! I told the hospital that on friday and they said they would save it for me when I wasnt there. So you may now contact me c/o the local childrens hospital where i seem to spend most of my life !